I'm starting to think that having a stupid facebook
was a really bad idea...
Daniela Gruschky dice:
Que bueno que tenes facebook!
Ya me habia olvidado de tu cara...
Nadi Wityk dice:
jejejeje vamos igual entonces
todo bien, en casa de mi hermano, disfrutando de las anheladas vacaciones. vos?, todo en orden?
Daniela Gruschky dice:
Yo bien, nada de vacas.. Tengo q rendir anato el 5 y el 9!
Asi q me la pase estudiando..
Nunca un verano en paz no?
Pero bueno, es lo q hay.. El otro dia con la Mu nos acordabamos de vos.. y de tu vida tan ocupada (ya q nunca nos vemos)..
Espero q cuando vuelvas nos veamoss..
Yo tengo ganass..
Como anda todo por Canada?
Un beso para ella y otro para vos.
What are you supposed to reply to that crudeness?... i don't even think i will. First of all, if you wanna see me so badly, and for real, not just to tell me "hey, are you dead or something?, wtf?", why don't you just pick up the phone and dial my number?, 'cause like, it was my birthday and the only thing i got from you was a simple "happy birthday" on stupid Facebook, not even an email or a phonecall, when, for instance, Gustavo
(a boy from school with whom i used to get allong pretty well but never nothing too serious, just... good classmates and friends) actually called me and asked to pass by (and that's why exactly i did the same on yours). I mean, is this even rational?... is this what old friends do?. Alright, i have to admit that the old friends don't actually stop seeing each other for more than a year, i suppose, but just.. i don't know. I have no interest. Not when every time i see you you're talking about how we don't see eachother more often. You work and study, i study and you actually think you're the best because you study medicine and i study graphic design. So what, big deal, lots of people study medicine and lots of people go through that hell, but they don't believe they're smarter or that they're more than others because of it, just get the fuck over it already. And what's best, i actually... i don't know. I don't know if this ever happened to me, but i feel like... i don't care about you anymore. I don't know, it's like... yeah. I think i don't. You didn't even invite me to your house for a birthday that you actually cellebrated (when you know i don't cellebrate mines).
It's weird. It's usually happening a lot to me. I have stopped caring for so many people... it's... i don't know. It's kinda scary at moments, you know?. All these volatile people... i don't know, seriously. There's the case of Ivonne
as well. She pointed up on different signatures than me and Yamila
(even though we still had many signatures in common to course and we gave her a paper with all the schedules and comissions we pointed up into), and she chose all the other comissions, all different from ours, and then asking, in the only signature we happened to share (because it was the only comission available, of course
) why we didn't show up on the other signatures. And the only signs of life we got from her were only 3 text messages from her during the entire semester, asking for things about college
. Not even "how are you" or anything. So yeah, fuck off. And when we asked her for some files from an assignment the three of us did, and that we've been asking for since the end of the past semester (and i got this reply like... two weeks before finishing the semester), the only reply i got from her was "i lost the usb key where the files were, and you know me, i never keep backups of my files, so i lost everything, hehehehehehe". Seriously?. Fuck you
. I've been waiting for the file during the entire semester, and i've asked you for it like once a week
. I got really mad and i told her "wow, nice... so you lost your usb key (something really common on her, as she loses everything) with our assignment in it... you know, it wasn't only a file you lost, it was an assignment made by the three of us, not only you" and she started saying that i didn't care before about the assignment, blah blah blah, all this nonesense and then she blocked me (this conversation was over msn). And since that very moment, i decided i wouldn't care anymore about her. And i still don't. She never texted me again, she never dropped me a line over Facebook or over msn, nothing. It actually surprised me like two days ago when i was watching the news channel TN (Todo Noticias) over the internet with my mom and my bro at dinner time and i saw her on the news when she was interviewed because of the heat in Buenos Aires. I almost spilled my juice when i saw her and my mom was all "yay, look!, it's Ivonne!". I wanted to throw the computer over the window, swear to god.
I don't even know why this is happening to me now. I think it's because i'm saturated. I don't want any more certain kinds of people in my life, it seems. I don't want anyone blaming me and being acid because we never see eachother, i don't want anyone so volatile, that dreams all the time and has no feelings of settling up, of rooting to someone or somewhere, that just... simply doesn't give a fuck about you. I don't know. My brother a few days ago told me i was going to end up alone like him (i live telling him that he's too fucking hysterical with everything and he has really bad treats and doesn't have any little bit of tolerance and that's the reason he's alone), and i said "i don't give a fuck. We'll probably live together and we'll grow old in the same house, making company eachother". I'm starting to see my future like that, and it kinda scares me. I love my brother, but i don't wanna end up alone like him. Like him and like my dad. People with no tolerance of any kind, closed minds to everything that's not their opinion, calling people ignorants because they don't know something about chemistry, physics or maths.
I really don't wanna end up like that... and i'm scared, because sometimes i feel like i will stay alone, like him. Like them. And i despise the idea.